suddenly i don't have anything to say on the phone. maybe 'cause you sounded very sian? or tired? or lifeless? or maybe there isn't any reason why i have nothing to say or i don't want to say. maybe, i'm over-analysing things, thinking of what you would say if i asked you or told you something.

i enjoy your company, but i have no idea if you enjoy mine despite you having to come over to my house. i'm the one always craving affection and touch from you, but you seem to enjoy being affection-less. is coming over to see me becoming a routine or is it because you really wanted to see me?

you say i have nothing to say to you. that's true, but you don't seem to want to say anything to me either. are you bored of me? or vice versa? it just makes me so tired sometimes to think of why you behave the way you do. guys may complain that girls over-think, but it's because we care. if we don't care, then there's something wrong.

it just about kills me not knowing why we're like this all of a sudden.

oops, forgot to blog that my boy's back... haha. he came back on last friday and though he was quite tired, he joined me at zouk. it was fun but a bit crazy. peipei, yk, kim, sharon and derrick were there. i felt a bit guilty 'cause it looked like a couples outing and kim was without a date. >_< we went for supper at this hongkong cafe along zion road, which is behind great world city. the place and food seemed quite nice at that time. maybe 'cause i was super thirsty and a bit hungry.

because, when i brought sam and greg there yesterday for lunch, i was so disappointed with the food. the lychee cooler is still nice but the baked pasta.. let's just say i can cook way better than that. and bill totaled to like 17 bucks per person. that's 'cause they charged for that small plate of pickles for 1.88 and everything else on the menu costs with a .28 or .88 at the back! i think that was the only "hongkong" thing about that cafe i guess. don't think i'll ever go back there again.

yesterday was a long and tired but great day! i had very little sleep the night before 'cause i was making the cards but i think it was worth it! it's a been a long while since sam, greg and i hung out together. we went to vivocity and it's ok la, nothing for me to buy 'cause i'm basically broke. haha. but i did buy a nice grey/silver top from dorothy perkins at great world city 'cause it looked nice and sam too said it was nice. haha. it's quite glittery, so besides christmas and clubbing i dunno when i can wear it again. then again, it is cheaper than the black satin top i want which is similar in design and that is 89 bucks. actually i still want that black satin top, but no money. haha.

so sad angie couldn't join us for dinner but alley bar was great! it's actually quite nice sitting inside instead of outdoors like the last time i was there. it's dimly lit with tealights, giving a relaxing and quite a romantic atmosphere. the drinks were really good! alley bar has just become my number one hangout for drinks! :D and it's quite a lot cheaper if you go early during the happy hour from 5-9. it was nice of them to keep the cake for us too. great place to chill and celebrate birthdays at the same time. :P just remember to bring a cardigan along, 'cause it's quite cold after a while.

we were halfway through our drinks when we saw howard and shan wee from denise keller's season of eye for a guy. i told cher that i was half expecting denise keller to show up. haha. it'd be nice to see her in person though. we took lots of photos and they happened to grace our background. :P

that's shan (in the yellow tee) "in between" yansy and angie.

howard's the one in the white shirt and black vest. i think he dresses well, and he looks quite cute. haha.

the rest of our evening:















can't wait till our next party! :)

i'm stuck!

i have no idea how to do my assignment and i'm losing my beauty sleep! T_T

and i feel lonely. my boy is on his way back to malaysia right now and i already miss him! i sent him off earlier and i was making a mountain out of a molehill 'cause he was only going for less than a week and i felt like it was gonna be months. haha. i'm a silly goose. bleah. :P

luckily my dad suggested having dinner next to golden mile complex so i could send my boy off. seriously, the beef steamboat there is good. the building may look ulu on the outside but inside the restaurant is damn crowded! i loved the satay even though they only do pork. it's the best pork satay i've ever had! apparently i'd been there before when i was younger but i have absolutely no recollection of it at all. according to my parents, the restaurant's been there for as long as 30 years. and business still booming. they even extended the restaurant. business booming = food is good. haha. but really. the chicken rice is good too!

since it was near bugis, we walked over and unexpectedly ended up shopping. my mom bought me this pair of gold wedges which i had been looking for a long time as my christmas present. it's from bonia and it was on super duper sale! $138 reduced to $28 'cause there's only one size left. i couldn't believe the price tag at first but yeah, the salesgirl confirmed it. a bit cheapo but it's the thought that counts. hahaha. i literally dragged my brother to topman/topshop to look at clothes. i was so lucky! the belt i was eyeing was going at half the price so i bought it immediately, and it was so fun picking out tees and shirts for my brother 'cause he's been complaining he has no clothes to wear but always has "no money". *rolls eyes*

but yeah, the day was complete with a cup of tall green tea frappucino at starbucks. shiok.

on a side note, i think my mom not only menopauses but her personality is damn scary at times. she embarassed me to the core with near-shouting tones when she didn't like the belt i wanted to buy. i think the entire store turned heads. and then, when we couldn't catch any cabs she was shouting again to ask us to "stop waiting and take the bus already!". like my dad said, she can really spoil the day sometimes. we just can't understand why she has to shout/scream her thoughts across, and she doesn't even feel that it's wrong. God help her, please. and i shudder to think that i'd one day become like her, 'cause i'm constantly exposed to that kind of treatment. you know, when you're constantly exposed to a certain behaviour, you'll sooner or later start to imitate it. e.g. scolding vulgarities, punchlines, mindsets.

please don't ever let that happen.

maybe i'm stressed about school. i had a dream last night about my subject guides. i dreamt that the courier guy delivered all my subject guides to me including my contract law text and i was so happy i received all of it. and that was the end of the dream. so weird! thing is, i got the pack some time ago but only 2 out of 5 guides were sent and the contract law text was missing too. i was so pissed so i immediately emailed uol to send me the rest of my guides. till now, i still haven't received them and i heard they just deducted the continuing registration fee, which is in pounds, just after the exhange rate appreciated. damn them man! they took like 2 bloody months. i bet they waited for pounds to appreciate then they deduct. uol is super scheming i tell you! from now on, i'll be discouraging whoever is thinking of registering for sim. hmph.

my boy is leaving for his hometown this sunday evening. sigh. i'll really miss him even though he's only gonna be away for like 4 days? we're like siamese twins that can't live being apart... hur hur. maybe only i think that way. hah.

The Game Plan is damn funny! i think it's one of the few shows that i really laughed so much and teared as well. do catch it before it ends!

Anyway, Happy Deepavali! haha. i'm just glad it's a public holiday. we're gonna celebrate ashley's and grace's birthdays later this evening, though we really dunno what to get for grace. sigh..

a huge stone has been lifted off me since afternoon 'cause i managed to drop my tuition student without a hitch, and thank goodness for ashley's help. if not for her, the kid's mom most probably would have climbed over my head already (or perhaps she already did, on that fateful sunday). i just wouldn't know how to put it across, and plus it's the first time i kena this kind of situation. argghh.

the long story is: last sunday i went for tuition as usual, i arrived there and the mom told me she forgot to tell me her kid is returning home late. ok, fine, i wait for the kid thinking that she'll be home soon, but i ended up waiting for an entire hour there. instead of charging her extra, i even tuitioned the kid for an hour more. but when i asked to collect the money, she kicked up a fuss saying why i didn't fulfill the one and a half hours. i explain to her nicely that i already waited an hour extra, but no, she starts to push the blame on me saying that i should be the one to call first to make sure the kid is available for tuition, and it's due to my inexperience and all that bullshit, and complaining that i was materialistic 'cause i just want the money. helloooo, i only took the charges for one lesson. if i count it strictly, i had given extra half an hour to her already. i told her i'm not the stingy type and i always stay a while more every lesson for free. but when i reached home, i decided that i just can't teach the kid anymore after all that had happened. ashley says i shouldn't let the mom take advantage of me, and she's right. but i really dunno how to handle the situation such that i gain the upper hand, so ashley helped me to call the mother, passing off as me, to inform her that i'm quitting. i tell you, i was so damn happy and that sense of relief, when she hung up on the mother, was unquantifiable. i'm so grateful to ashley for that call she made for me, and i thank God most importantly for helping me to get through all this smoothly and even getting a new tuition kid for me. how do i know? i just know. the timing was just so... right. the moment i decided to drop the student, the tuition agency called to ask me if i could handle another assignment. if it's not God's arrangement, what is?

i must go to novena more often now... 'cause God is still watching over me! :)